MY STORY + WHY STFU WAS BORN

MY HORMONAL STORY

For as long a I can remember I’ve never had a regular cycle, have always had painful periods & crazy PMS. I always knew something was off, but I was also young & didn’t worry too much about it. Summer of 2013 I started struggling with bad abdominal pain that sent me to the Urgent Care where they then discovered I had a few cysts & sent me on my way.

Come fall of 2014 I had two months of uterine bleeding, anemia, intense fatigue, stubborn weight gain, acne & terrible abdominal pain which turned out to be both of my ovaries now fully covered in cysts.

I left the doctors office that week with a diagnosis of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. A lifelong condition that affects 1 out of 10 women. PCOS is the leading cause of infertility. Over 50 percent of women with PCOS also develop type 2 diabetes by age 40, have an increase risk of heart disease, high blood pressure, & strokes - along with a slew of other not-so-fun things. I was sent home with what FELT like a life sentence. Plus, the treatment plan options of: birth control (which wouldn’t fix the issue, just put a band-aid on my symptoms,) & Metformin (a diabetes medication to help with my symptoms.)

I remember sitting in the OBGYNs office holding back tears, wanting to run out of the building as fast as I could. Once I finally got through the parking lot & into my car I just sat there bawling. INFERTILITY? A LIFELONG health condition?! I thought, how was this MY story? 

FINDING MY OWN HEALING PATH

Everything seemed to get worse before it got better. My hair started falling out drastically, my anxiety & depression hit a low, I could barely keep my eyes open when I was driving because I felt SO fatigued all the time - I was desperate for help.

The treatment plan of BC or Metformin never felt right to me. I spent hours on end doing my OWN research & decided shortly after that to peruse the help of a Naturopath. Once I did, I was then diagnosed with Hashimotos Disease, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut & the MTHFR gene mutation. Which at the time felt SO overwhelming, but I knew deep down I was on the path to feeling better. I finally had hope!

It was through naturopathic medicine that I discovered how POWERFUL real food, self-care, & mindful practices can be in the process of healing. I realized PCOS & Hashimotos was NOT a lifetime sentence, no matter how it was made to seem that way. I CHOSE to give my all to rewriting my story. I changed my diet & lifestyle completely. It truly felt my life as I knew it was changing completely. I knew it was all for my well-being but at times it felt incredibly isolating & overwhelming.

WHY SHUT THE FIG UP WAS BORN

This very overwhelming negative time in my life slowly turned into something I became incredibly passionate about. I started to heal. My cysts had dissapeared, I had more energy, & I truly felt like I was getting my life back. All because I decided to change what I was putting in/on my body, prioritize sleep, & begin to love myself through the process. 

I started to have this deep fire in me to share this journey with every girl whose ever sat in their car bawling because of the same things I cried for, for every girl who knows something is off with their bodies but can't get anyone to listen, for every girl who wanted help SO badly but didn’t know where to turn. I wanted to remind girls that they ARE strong, they are in control & they can make a change. I wanted to share that we CAN rewrite our story through REAL food & lifestyle changes. Real food is important. A non toxic lifestyle is important. LOVING ourselves no matter what our story has been IS important. And I wanted to be a part of sharing that message. THIS is my WHY behind shutthefigup.

FAST FORWARD FOUR YEARS

Eight months after my diagnosis I went in for an ultra sound. My ovaries were clear! That day I left the doctors office, sat in my car & cried... this time because I was so happy. A year after that, my Hashimotos was in remission. I remember being shocked that I was able to do this. After all of the doctors giving me what felt like a life sentence, I was able to put my symptoms at bay.

I used to be a full time hairstylist, but my path changed through this process. I became a certified ACE personal trainer, started Shut The Fig Up, & also started cooking for families out of their home who were passionate about living a healing lifestyle through food as well.

I want to share that my story is still ever-changing. This PCOS ride has been a rollercoaster & still is. I am still learning & trying to be patient with my body. This process, more than anything has taught me how important loving ourselves is. How truly important being forgiving & patient with our bodies can be.

I’ve also learned there’s great power in being open & honest about our struggles. It helps people feel less alone in theirs - which is why I love sharing my story. If you are struggling, I encourage you to share - be open. Don’t let shame trap you in a life of isolation. You’ll be amazed at how sharing our stories can make us feel connected.

Thank you for listening to my story. I’d love to hear yours 💕